Pain

Hey blog....So tonight..I lost her..Lost it all...Lost something that I wont ever get back..And thats Allie:'(..Sent me a message saying she's done with me..And that she didnt need me..So im dleeted out of her life....And im sad!!!

Bein sad

Hey bloggy:/....So right now..i'm upset..And tired..and cold:(
...I hate getting into almost fights with Allie:( And we almost got into one:( I logged of off fb to avoid one...She isb eing..weird tonight.>And im upset with her..So I havnt been saying much to her..So now..its m fault she is being weird with me..But it ticks me off..That she was FINE wtih Andy..and like this with me:( Its not fair..I HATE them being together..They have both lost...their TRUE personality....And I actualy cried about it last night..And on top of it..Track SUCKED tonight....It was so tough:( And just not fun..at all...I did nothing but run...Marissa got done before me..And thats ONCE IN A GREAT WILE...Actualy..this being the 1st time...I feel guilty now!...I didnt even say bye to Allie.....I did it for the best though:( Im freeeziiing!!!...Ive been cold ever since I woke up :(...And *sniffle*..Alexx is going to aconcert..And my phone died..So I dont get to talk to him..at all..tonight:( And Timmy was really quiet today..And im not sure why...and like...CIara sat with Gaby at lunch..And ugh!!!!!I dont want her being friends with her again :( But whatever....Im starving too:/ dad is cooking though..Woo....Soo yeah:( I love ya all://


Becca Boo:( Bein sad

Sundayy Blues

omg.....Its already 7:00 :/...Bed in 3 hours...then waking up to eiher being filled with magic...Or being 100% heartbroken......Im scared....I'm not ready to be hurt....Thats my new fear....I have a fear of being hurt....I guess i'll have to learn not to give out my heart to whoever glitters..And I LOVE Timmy..Dont get me wrong there..its just...I might be wasting the time being hurt..But my heart is SO used to it..And yeah..Alexx has been a TREMENDOUS help with my heart though...Like he is someone.>Who I also LIKE a lot...And he is like my numbness..When I talk to him..He's the only one in my world..And he is such a help..And I dont need to worry bout him hurting me... (Thats an atvange of liking someone like him!!) but honestly..... I'm happy with Alexx...And he 1 of the best friends.>ANYONE could EVER have!!And Timmy is too...Its just with my jealous-ness problem..I get hurt by him..sooo easy!!...and omg..This is NOTHING I was planning on saying xD...So its Sunday :) And I have school tomorrow..AND A TRACK MEET!!!!!!Im sooo excited :) I get to DO something this time..Im DEFINATLY bringing more supplies..Im bringing food =PP ...And my snuggie!!!And sweats..and an awesome sweatshirt..And my phone..And my ipod!<-----When Hannah is going up..I jam to it..And it helps..And I text Alexx the whole time xD but yea....Im soo excited AND scared!!!..but imma be texting Alexx so its all okaay :) ..Im gonna dress up tomorrow :) I have a pretty blue shirt..butten down..And its silky..with like dimand-looking buttons..And its REALLY pretty..Anf skinnies..And my ballet flats :) sounds pretty to me....Because we are suposed to dress up on meet days xD..idk why 0.o ..I gueess its to show off our awesomeness...Im NOT looking forward to see Katrina......I hate her so much!!She thinks she is all that..OH MY GOSH!!..I forgot..She is getting chewed out by Mrs. Belding tomorrow!!!!!WOOOT!..Ok..Yea..I wanna see Katrina now..getting yelled at!ha! How dare she say me & Hannah dont do crap!!She can suck a juicebox..And start learning that me & Hannah arent afraid to snich!! Ha!!!!!!!!!!! I need to redo my nails tonight...They are gonna be blue & black...Like a REALLLY pretty blue!! And since we are blue & white (I dont have white polush)...Imma gonna go BLUE!!..And my pretty blue pre-wrap<3 THAT STUFF IS LOVE!!!Like no joke!So on fb..I had a stat about Alexx..and It has OVER 60 comments xD..lol...Gotta love it!!!..So now i'm going to talk about my classes...K? 1st period..I have Language Arts...AKA my favorite subject...Its SO much fun being in LA...I have epic people in it to make it fun..I wonder if Mrs. Haseman wil lwear her RED SHOES;P EPIC story behind that..Mabye ill blog that story if she wears them!!!Next is Science...EEEWWW..I HATE my Science teacher..But it should be a LITTLE more fun because NO MORE disections..Andd we're learning about dinamics..AND ROLLER COASTERS!!!!!YAAAY!!and next is Gym:) I USED to hate it..Now i LOVE it...Its soo fun to do the diffrent things :) Then I have Study Hall...Its kinda fun..It depends what we're allowed to do..SOMEITMES we get candy and stuff :)...Next I have Math... HATE math..but I LOVE my math teacher..And she loves me :) So its kinda fun..Because we get to have funn in her class :) next is LUNCH...SOmetimes lunch is NASTY..sometimes its actualy ammmazing xD....Then recess..We walk around...Poking people's bellies :)..And we give bunches of peoples hugs<3..I LOVE HUGS^^....And thn I have reading..mostly its notes..and reading xD....Its alright..kinda fun sometimes...THen I have COmputers..THe class I sit behind TImmy in :) OMG..He makes the class so epic :) And I LOVE IT!!!..I HATE having Gaby in that class though>.>....THEN my last class-Social Studies...I dont really like it.....But it can be fun..Sometimes xD...We do LOTS of art projects in there:) So I played Truth or Dare with Alexx..and Allie... It was soo fun:) But now im sad:( I not allowed to talk to Alexx again till 9:00pm...About 2 hours from now!!it sucks...but oh wellz...right?...Im living...I have no idea what I want to o tonight..I know I gotta clean out my book bag..And get my track bag ready xD And I need to run a bit....Fuun.....well im gonna go...For the night....I LOVE YOU peoples :) ^^

~Random COlorz~

Something Amaaziiinng

Im talking to Alexx<3 ha!Thats a shocker... (sarcastic) So im listeing to Patriotic..aka my fav song
..So....I want to ride an airplane now xD and I want to do something amazing again!!!! lol!!!I have..nothing..to say..tonight....OH I PULLED AN ALL NIGHTER LAST NIGHT xD but good bye :)

Yummy xD

Heeyo blogg:)
So..Heyy...Im in a GREAT mood...I want to talk to Alexx...Wanna know how the flight and crap are going!:) <3 :) I hope its going well...I HOPE HE DOESNT CRASH!!!;O that would like..make me cry..and sooo sad..and just depressed..for like...ever!..I miss him!lol....Ok..MABYE Allie was right..I MIGHT be a LITTLE obsessed..Wich I DONT KNOW WHY!!!!!!!!So omg...Spring break..ends..tomorrrow!yaaay!!That means i get to see my other lovee :) TIMMY!!!i love TImmy..a lot.....The only reason I havnt been talkin bout him a lot..Is cause' I havnt seen him..or even called him...And ever since the whole jacket thing on Friday....YEAAAH!..Well im home alone..YEAHH!!!...I have my speakers BLASTING!!!!Im thinking about dancing xD!!!!I need to do something amazing :)
So anyway..Im hyper...I had my sugar crash FIRST..Now..IM HYPER!!!!!YEAAAAAH!!!

Frusteration and crap

...Right now i'm really tired..bored..And annoyed..All at the same freakin time :(
1)I didnt get to bed till 4:00am
2)I'm really frusterated with someone..
3)..I WAS waiting for Alexx to text me back..but he did.>So that makes me happier..:)
So anyway..Last night was ok..I HATE my yg pastors wife >.>...She is soo UGH!!!...But whatever...Idc about her...Last night wasnt as fun as I wanted it to be..We had deep conversations at my house..thats about IT!!.......I guess Ill live with it..but still :( ....Everything is better now that i'm talking to Alexx<3 ....THe most amazzzing awesomme...fantastic.....loving..caring...best guy EVER!...And I mean EVER!..I love being to tell him ANYTHING...freakin anything..and its alright!And o-m-g!!...Last night I swore up and down not to say ONE word about Alexx....HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA...Alexx this..Alexx this....I talked about Alexx.....97% of the night xD And idc..i honestly dont..So hahaha :0 He makes me happy..When I realllly need it.. BYE!!

Its Sat

Hey...Im here with Allie <3 <3 <3...ALexx is mean..He isnt allowed to text me tonight..because he got caught xD.....But anyway..I have a babyshower..in 10 hours xD...Yupp..Well...Im with allie.>So yea..TOnight was ok..I hattttte my Youth Pastors wife >.>...Yuck!!!....Ill write..later today xD byyyye

Thursday- Post 1

Hola everyone!I hate being woke up early:( but i guess I dont want to sleep in all day either...So whatever...Today, is Thursday..1 day away from my plans with Allie:))
Tomorrow,Im going to my Youth Pastors house to hang out..It should be a lot of fun..Ill be myself watching his 2 little girls for awile..But thats FIIINE...I love those girls!..Audry is 2..A Maddie is 1:) Cutte too!! So anyway..When Allie is done with her 1st date with Andyy<3..She is coming over to P.R.s house tooo!We will be there will 11...With junk food and pop!!!hehehehehhe:) Its going to be insane!!!!Super excited..Today I have to clean my room.....Wooo.......Rigt now im hungry..I want crackers..but thus..We have none>.>............Blehh....I guess ill have cereal...I wonder how long its going to take me to clean my room... *thinks*..I have a MESSSSY room right now!!lol! Im guessing 1 hour...mabye 2...Im really happy..The storm blew around us..So we didnt get anything bad!!!!yay!!!.....O-m-g....I like almost cried last night...It was sooo hard not talking to Alexx yesterday..I honestly didnt think it would be so hard!!!!!!It took self control not to.....Bu I did it..With much frusteration..but i still did it:)

Scareeed

Its storming here..And the worst is yet to come *hides*..Me=DEATHLY afraid of storms..
Hail...70mph winds..THUNDER....LIGHTING..Eeeep...Im scared:( I hate storms..But I have a ipod..and a portable DVD player..So if things get bad..We can fall onto the electronics!!!!yaay.....Well im talking to Allie..It makes things better :)

My Day

So..Today was pretttty greeat :) We finally got to leave at noon..And 1st.>We went the the bank to get money..For the day :) ...Then we went to Wal-Mart..We went in for 3 things..And ended up getting soo much stuff!!!...So..I saw a cute pair of black shoes...And I got a text that made me want to cry :( ....I hate it when he acts up liek this..When he wont talk..And he says he is suicidal....He made me worry all day...So I got some of my favorite childhood snacks..Fruit gushers XD.....So worrying about someone...I went through the day,,We went out for mexican..I had a salad thing..And then we chilled at Rosie's house..And I FINALLY met Edward!!!!He is such a sweetheart..We chilled..Ate some more..And Laughed..then we looked at phones :) ...I found a pink one that I LOVE!!!And im pretty sure i' going to get it..SOMETIME this month..not sure when...Whenever God wants me to have it i supose :) ....Then..Rodie sugests we go out for ice cream...Yayy!!..So we got coldstone!!(BEST ICE CREAM EVERRR)...I had a great day..Oh..I got oreo creme icecream..Complete with snickers mixed with it :) ...YUMMMMY!!!..Now..I am waiting for my madre to decide if we are going to Youth Group tonight or not..Yayness.......Well thats my day :) This one is REALLLLY short today!!!!!lol...Have a great day everyone...

Peace,Love And...umm idk XD make something upp

~Guppy~

3rd blog today

Im being such a bug todayXD .....My 3rd blog today...Its a blog..right?...So you dont have to read..its me being me..expressing everything out..So im going to ramble..k?

Its only 11...And we're not even LEAVING till noon...:( ...I want to see Rosie!!..Im a bit mad..THis immature girl..keeps texting me..And we are like fighting..BECAUSE OF TIMMY!.....Ive gotten into a lot of fights about Timmy.....I wish people would just respect the fact that I like him....I could say the same thing about Alexx truthfully...BECAUSE my binder has a list of friends..And Alexx is one of them..People ask me who it is..I tell them..And they all freak out that I like him!!! ughh!.........
I hate liking guys!..Because THATS what causes soooo much drama!!!! it makes me soo mad! X-( ............Im ready to go..I did my make-up..hair..And i just nneed to put my flip flops on....Ugh ugh ugh...:( One of my friends is driving through my town..But she isnt allowed to come see me..I havnt seen her since 2008:( .......I'm in a bad mood right now....Im sick of having to compete for Timmy...I hate loving one of the most popular guys in the SCHOOL!...Its so frusterating..and a sure way to get your heart broken :( And its hard....very very hard....Im upset...And mad right now....Gotta love life:/ Well..I guess i'm going to write some more:/ Because it makes me feel better...And since Alexx is in schoool..He isnt answering my tects...Joy.....I..want to ......cry..or even better..die!!!
Life is just making me soo mad!!!!!!I dont know what to do...So im lost...And this probablly isnt making sense..but i dont care..I mwriting what my heart is telling me to..This porb isnt thrilling to read..Or even remotly exciting..But you dont have to read.....:'( so I watched a REALLY creppy movie last night...Called The Forth Kind..It was about this lady...who her daughter got abducted by allians..AND ITS A TRUE STORY (THe LIVE footage proved it)..And now I am scared of allians!!!!!!
.......Ugh...I want someone to text me....BESIDES Jocy.........I hate her..A LOT....She is such a freakin *word goes here*..Oh its 11:11...MAKE A WISH.... *makes wish* ................................................................. Ok I made my wish :) ...Hopefully it will come true...Call me weird..Because I believe my wishes will come true.......So my phone is getting A LOT worse....It know has a nice cloudy line running through the screen..And the top is all RED AND BLACK NOW..It looks like its bleeeeding!......blah blah blah....So my nails look pretty :) They are hot pink & black :) for those who care.....On my right hand..My thumb is black..And the rest are pink..The other is opposite :)..Same with my toes!!! They look realllly coolio!I want to talk to Allie :( She is 1 person who knows everything about me...And I know everything about her..She is like my sister...I cant wait for our overnighter on Friday!!!O-m-g!!Its going to be fun.....IF she is ok..Going to P.R.'s house....But PR likes her..And she lieks pR...SHOULDNT be a problem..I hope!!!ehh joy..Now NOBODY is answering my texts!!! ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh!!!!Im running ou of things to ramble about...Its 11:15 now..I feel like ive been writing FOREVER..But only 15 minutes...Minutes are going by so freakin slow today!!!!! I wannnt to talk to Alexx NOW!!!!!!! Him,Allie,& Timmy will probably be the base for most of my blogs..that and school....And interesting fights between me & people..I fight a lot..I "antagonize" people......I do a good job at it..I protect my friends..I get mad easy..So when someone messes eith my BFFs...Ohh....Ill be mean >.>
I hate friends who just sit there and WATCH you get hurt :( its sad.......
Im going to write for 3 more minutes......till 11:20 :) ok..So ill..hmm......I describe my outifit XD ...k..So I have a gray shirt on...with purple and pink doodles all over it..really cute :)..And then I have tan shorts on..Because its amazingly warm where I am..Its raining..I lvoe rain..But sometimes it makes me sad..But sometimes it makes me oh so happy to!..And OFCOARSE..I have my necklace fro mTImmy on...A silver heart <3....I have a turquoise 7 white jelly bracelet on...I love those things..NOT for the intended purpose..But because i think they complete an outfit really good :) ...And I have a white hair tie on my wrist to :) ...Wooo!!!wow..Those 3 minutes went by FAST..now that im ACTIVLY typing =O ...Well..Im going to quit rambling..And post up some poems:) Leaven Lovee for someone :) ~Guppy~

Alexx

Ok..So I was suposed to do this last night..But I didnt feel like it XD..So I'm gonna do it right now:)

So..A couple months ago..I was talking to my BFF/Sister/Girly...on facebook..And I noticed I had a friend request..Im like okk yaay..And I saw the name,Didnt think too much of it..And ALMOST ignored..But I decided to accept..I was curious..So I asked Allie who he was and a bunch of other stuff,And she just was kinda suprised I got a request from him to...But it was all good..For the 1st..Oh sayy 2 weeks? we didnt even talk..And I THINK I talked to him 1st..i dont remember...but anyway...ever sinse that 1st conversation...I talk to Alexx daily..And To my luck..I started talking to Allie...And we talked more and more about him..And last month..I was talking to Allie..And she started asking questions about how I liked him..I was like no!! I DO NOT!...He is just reallllllly sweet,and ammaaaziiing..And she was all like "Becca..you liek him.>Stop denying!"..Then I waso n facebook at the time (Obviously..if I was talking to Allie)..And when I saw he was online..I started getting REALLLLY jumpy..And started freaking out..And I would just laughing non-stop!..ANd when I talked to him..My fingers were shaky..I could barely type that day..And OFCORSE...I tell Allie I like him..And i tell her NOT to tell him I like him...But nooo..SHE TELLS HIM!!!..I dint know whether to be mad or upset...Or happy..So i just brushed it off..:P I think Alexx is reallly funny,sweet,amazing,he really helps me through a lot..And last month was a hard month for me..he really helped me through it<3 ..And he is a really great friend..And I am SO happy he is there for me!!!!..I could go on FOREVER about him!!!!He is realllllllly cute too :) And all my friend agree!!!....I had his picture as the backround of my cell for awile..And I had girls FIGHTING for my phone to see it..And I got all mad..and took it back...Beause I wanted to see it XD......And when my friend Ciara..Asked for his number..I didnt even ask Alexx...I told her strait up..NO!!!lol..I get mad when my friends add him on fb too=P ...Well this is what i have to say on Alexx right now XD ..Ohh..And I thik its completely 100% ammmazziikng that he is french!!!!I think its sooo cool!!!!!lol...EASILY AMUSED!!!! but thats not the point >.>

The Plans

Heey:) Ok so..Im waiting for people to get home..So I can get ready to go out with my mom,And her friend (Which im down for..Cause I love her<3)..And Carl..(He is my little brother)......So we are going out for Mexican..Then we are going to talk to Rose about MY NEW PHONE!!!!!!Yaaay...Gotta love broken phones...Like..Half my screen being cracked..and white..And now having rainbow colors running down the whole thing>.>...With battery problems!!!I hate my phone atm...Im ready for a new one...So anyway..Im not sure about this whole blog thing...I keep thinking im doing it wrong...But im doing this to the request of a couple people:) THose couple people i call my Best Friends :) Well 2/4 of them..lol...So yeah...Last night was boring...My back hurts sooo bad today!!!!Apperently I slept on my floor last night.......I was supoed to go with my mom to take dad to work..But I was up too late last night and didnt want to go..And I woke up..On my floor.....I dont even remember being in my bed...And its kinda weird!!!! lol...So..YeaXD ...I dont even remember being on my flooor either....The last thing I remeber is taking pictures..at like 11:50.....Interesting.......haha..So ok..Right now...Its 9:20....And im listening to Taylor Swift..And thinking about what to write about my "All About Alexx" post...SOmehow..I got bribed to do a post all about him.....This is thrilling..So yea.....Idk what other blogs I should do..Should I just do 1 every day?lol..Im not smart..So I guess..keep checking..because,Im gonna TRY to post daily..For the people who care about my life!

Spring Breakk

Wow...I havnt been to school for like...well..ever since Thursday..And I still have till Sunday:( ...I miss him! I miss him LOTS!!!!!!Everything bout him...His hugs..laugh....And I just miss my girlies...I miss running around the school with Hannah for track too..Im ready to go back!!!!!The only ammmazing thing is..I can text Alexx more :) He makes me happy....LOL..And makes me feel amazing!!! And i guess being able to daydream..and not worry bout paying attention is great too =)
But I miss him.....A lot......I get "school sick"..i guess you could call it that=P.....And I am ready to fall on my face in front of LOTS of people...For track..Oh my gosh..I have a meet on Monday!!I think im readyXD ........ Right now...Im talking to one of the best guys ever :) Which is keeping my mind off of hiim:) :) :) :) :).......Im listeing to music..As usual...And now im gonna go eat some crackers :) byyee