Pain

Hey blog....So tonight..I lost her..Lost it all...Lost something that I wont ever get back..And thats Allie:'(..Sent me a message saying she's done with me..And that she didnt need me..So im dleeted out of her life....And im sad!!!

Bein sad

Hey bloggy:/....So right now..i'm upset..And tired..and cold:(
...I hate getting into almost fights with Allie:( And we almost got into one:( I logged of off fb to avoid one...She isb eing..weird tonight.>And im upset with her..So I havnt been saying much to her..So now..its m fault she is being weird with me..But it ticks me off..That she was FINE wtih Andy..and like this with me:( Its not fair..I HATE them being together..They have both lost...their TRUE personality....And I actualy cried about it last night..And on top of it..Track SUCKED tonight....It was so tough:( And just not fun..at all...I did nothing but run...Marissa got done before me..And thats ONCE IN A GREAT WILE...Actualy..this being the 1st time...I feel guilty now!...I didnt even say bye to Allie.....I did it for the best though:( Im freeeziiing!!!...Ive been cold ever since I woke up :(...And *sniffle*..Alexx is going to aconcert..And my phone died..So I dont get to talk to him..at all..tonight:( And Timmy was really quiet today..And im not sure why...and like...CIara sat with Gaby at lunch..And ugh!!!!!I dont want her being friends with her again :( But whatever....Im starving too:/ dad is cooking though..Woo....Soo yeah:( I love ya all://


Becca Boo:( Bein sad

Sundayy Blues

omg.....Its already 7:00 :/...Bed in 3 hours...then waking up to eiher being filled with magic...Or being 100% heartbroken......Im scared....I'm not ready to be hurt....Thats my new fear....I have a fear of being hurt....I guess i'll have to learn not to give out my heart to whoever glitters..And I LOVE Timmy..Dont get me wrong there..its just...I might be wasting the time being hurt..But my heart is SO used to it..And yeah..Alexx has been a TREMENDOUS help with my heart though...Like he is someone.>Who I also LIKE a lot...And he is like my numbness..When I talk to him..He's the only one in my world..And he is such a help..And I dont need to worry bout him hurting me... (Thats an atvange of liking someone like him!!) but honestly..... I'm happy with Alexx...And he 1 of the best friends.>ANYONE could EVER have!!And Timmy is too...Its just with my jealous-ness problem..I get hurt by him..sooo easy!!...and omg..This is NOTHING I was planning on saying xD...So its Sunday :) And I have school tomorrow..AND A TRACK MEET!!!!!!Im sooo excited :) I get to DO something this time..Im DEFINATLY bringing more supplies..Im bringing food =PP ...And my snuggie!!!And sweats..and an awesome sweatshirt..And my phone..And my ipod!<-----When Hannah is going up..I jam to it..And it helps..And I text Alexx the whole time xD but yea....Im soo excited AND scared!!!..but imma be texting Alexx so its all okaay :) ..Im gonna dress up tomorrow :) I have a pretty blue shirt..butten down..And its silky..with like dimand-looking buttons..And its REALLY pretty..Anf skinnies..And my ballet flats :) sounds pretty to me....Because we are suposed to dress up on meet days xD..idk why 0.o ..I gueess its to show off our awesomeness...Im NOT looking forward to see Katrina......I hate her so much!!She thinks she is all that..OH MY GOSH!!..I forgot..She is getting chewed out by Mrs. Belding tomorrow!!!!!WOOOT!..Ok..Yea..I wanna see Katrina now..getting yelled at!ha! How dare she say me & Hannah dont do crap!!She can suck a juicebox..And start learning that me & Hannah arent afraid to snich!! Ha!!!!!!!!!!! I need to redo my nails tonight...They are gonna be blue & black...Like a REALLLY pretty blue!! And since we are blue & white (I dont have white polush)...Imma gonna go BLUE!!..And my pretty blue pre-wrap<3 THAT STUFF IS LOVE!!!Like no joke!So on fb..I had a stat about Alexx..and It has OVER 60 comments xD..lol...Gotta love it!!!..So now i'm going to talk about my classes...K? 1st period..I have Language Arts...AKA my favorite subject...Its SO much fun being in LA...I have epic people in it to make it fun..I wonder if Mrs. Haseman wil lwear her RED SHOES;P EPIC story behind that..Mabye ill blog that story if she wears them!!!Next is Science...EEEWWW..I HATE my Science teacher..But it should be a LITTLE more fun because NO MORE disections..Andd we're learning about dinamics..AND ROLLER COASTERS!!!!!YAAAY!!and next is Gym:) I USED to hate it..Now i LOVE it...Its soo fun to do the diffrent things :) Then I have Study Hall...Its kinda fun..It depends what we're allowed to do..SOMEITMES we get candy and stuff :)...Next I have Math... HATE math..but I LOVE my math teacher..And she loves me :) So its kinda fun..Because we get to have funn in her class :) next is LUNCH...SOmetimes lunch is NASTY..sometimes its actualy ammmazing xD....Then recess..We walk around...Poking people's bellies :)..And we give bunches of peoples hugs<3..I LOVE HUGS^^....And thn I have reading..mostly its notes..and reading xD....Its alright..kinda fun sometimes...THen I have COmputers..THe class I sit behind TImmy in :) OMG..He makes the class so epic :) And I LOVE IT!!!..I HATE having Gaby in that class though>.>....THEN my last class-Social Studies...I dont really like it.....But it can be fun..Sometimes xD...We do LOTS of art projects in there:) So I played Truth or Dare with Alexx..and Allie... It was soo fun:) But now im sad:( I not allowed to talk to Alexx again till 9:00pm...About 2 hours from now!!it sucks...but oh wellz...right?...Im living...I have no idea what I want to o tonight..I know I gotta clean out my book bag..And get my track bag ready xD And I need to run a bit....Fuun.....well im gonna go...For the night....I LOVE YOU peoples :) ^^

~Random COlorz~

Something Amaaziiinng

Im talking to Alexx<3 ha!Thats a shocker... (sarcastic) So im listeing to Patriotic..aka my fav song
..So....I want to ride an airplane now xD and I want to do something amazing again!!!! lol!!!I have..nothing..to say..tonight....OH I PULLED AN ALL NIGHTER LAST NIGHT xD but good bye :)

Yummy xD

Heeyo blogg:)
So..Heyy...Im in a GREAT mood...I want to talk to Alexx...Wanna know how the flight and crap are going!:) <3 :) I hope its going well...I HOPE HE DOESNT CRASH!!!;O that would like..make me cry..and sooo sad..and just depressed..for like...ever!..I miss him!lol....Ok..MABYE Allie was right..I MIGHT be a LITTLE obsessed..Wich I DONT KNOW WHY!!!!!!!!So omg...Spring break..ends..tomorrrow!yaaay!!That means i get to see my other lovee :) TIMMY!!!i love TImmy..a lot.....The only reason I havnt been talkin bout him a lot..Is cause' I havnt seen him..or even called him...And ever since the whole jacket thing on Friday....YEAAAH!..Well im home alone..YEAHH!!!...I have my speakers BLASTING!!!!Im thinking about dancing xD!!!!I need to do something amazing :)
So anyway..Im hyper...I had my sugar crash FIRST..Now..IM HYPER!!!!!YEAAAAAH!!!

Frusteration and crap

...Right now i'm really tired..bored..And annoyed..All at the same freakin time :(
1)I didnt get to bed till 4:00am
2)I'm really frusterated with someone..
3)..I WAS waiting for Alexx to text me back..but he did.>So that makes me happier..:)
So anyway..Last night was ok..I HATE my yg pastors wife >.>...She is soo UGH!!!...But whatever...Idc about her...Last night wasnt as fun as I wanted it to be..We had deep conversations at my house..thats about IT!!.......I guess Ill live with it..but still :( ....Everything is better now that i'm talking to Alexx<3 ....THe most amazzzing awesomme...fantastic.....loving..caring...best guy EVER!...And I mean EVER!..I love being to tell him ANYTHING...freakin anything..and its alright!And o-m-g!!...Last night I swore up and down not to say ONE word about Alexx....HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA...Alexx this..Alexx this....I talked about Alexx.....97% of the night xD And idc..i honestly dont..So hahaha :0 He makes me happy..When I realllly need it.. BYE!!

Its Sat

Hey...Im here with Allie <3 <3 <3...ALexx is mean..He isnt allowed to text me tonight..because he got caught xD.....But anyway..I have a babyshower..in 10 hours xD...Yupp..Well...Im with allie.>So yea..TOnight was ok..I hattttte my Youth Pastors wife >.>...Yuck!!!....Ill write..later today xD byyyye